Year: 2024
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together-ness
‘how are you?’. F. asked me. i guess it depends of the day. it also depends of the moment of the day. and my period. it might also be affected by the path of the stars. i opened co-star. ‘don’t eat pickles’. well noted. i guess this will solve my day. in between the good…
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desexing ourselves
are you going to desex your dog?, D. asked me once. apparently it’s pretty common. and maybe that’s why dogs are different here. they don’t bark. there’s no dramas in the park. they even smile. did some research. 80% of dogs here are desex. by cutting the testosterone, you remove all the things that are…
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am i the same girl?
you wake up in the morning. coffee, journal, planks. walking the dog in the park. being late to your 9.30 am. one day after another. and somehow, suddenly you realise your life has had drastic change. it was a random Saturday and i was still in bed when L. called me. ‘let’s go to Japan’,…
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there was a will, but not a way
where there is a will, there is a way, they say. but sometimes things don’t go the way we expect. and it’s hard to accept. you wish this, you get that. like in sex and love. sometimes you want them to like you for your brain. but you just get night dates instead. when you…
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finger the rice
‘i eat rice every day’, K said. ‘i grew up in Pennsylvania but my parents are from Cambodia. i was the only brown girl in high school. rice is roots for me’, she said. ‘i have never been that much into rice’, i said. and suddenly i thought if not being into rice means i…
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growing pains
A. called me. ‘my grandpa passed away. he was 98.’ we went to the beach and walk 10 km to vent the pain. ‘i like my life in Melbourne. but i should be in the UK to say goodbye to him. i knew we are far away of everything, but today i realised how isolated…
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cathartic chaos
four fridays ago i was tired and about to take a rain check. ‘i had a terrible week. i need some sleep’, i said. ‘come on, will be fun’, F. said. T. texted me as well: ‘has been a while. we NEED to catch up’, he wrote. i have no personality left, c’est partie pour…
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are we cancelling ourselves?
i was in the car with R. and suddenly ‘all of the lights’ of Kanye started to play. as all my friends are new here, i didn’t know if i could sing or if i should start the cancelation speech. one of the good things of starting a new life is that sometimes you have…
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ready for love
i was with Z. having lunch in Rathdowne street. ‘how are you?, how was your week?’, she asked me. ‘week was ok. it’s just that i am being targeted by this stupid ad in instagram: “don’t chase, attract” is the punching line. i am not chasing anything… but things being said, what i attract, is…
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a hinge fairytale
i wrote Z. to have some news about her life. she was excited about her second date with this new guy. kind of the perfect modern prince. tall. PhD. attractive mind. european with asian eyes. the fact that he lives in a castle just added up. how was the chateau weekend?, i asked her. ‘it…